after a difficult quarter in winter, i am nothing but motivated to turn things around. i love the first week of school - first day of classes, buying new notebooks, studying new material. it’s so refreshing to have a fresh start every two and a half months. i have faith that this will be my quarter to shine in every way possible.
boost my GPA :)
have more fun, but responsibly. (meaning finish homework or any other responsibilities before going out)
spend more quality time with SK sisters (since most of the time when I’m at the house, it’s for VPNME business)
work out at least twice a week
visit home at least once a month
—-I think all of this is doable :) Well, at least I hope so!
i said it last quarter and i’ll say it again, i need to prioritize my life accordingly. i can’t keep going on like this anymore. fall quarter was bad, and now this condition is getting worse - i can’t focus at all on anything anymore, not even normal conversations sometimes. i read slower than a child, and i can’t comprehend simple things like i used to.
it’s not fair that you can just cry and be sorry when nothing is actually plaguing your life, no matter how much you apologize, i will still reap the consequences of your actions, but my own come into account as well. what you did was unfair to me, but i’m also being unfair to myself.
i have a TBI, that led to PTA, and caused PTSD and lots of LOC
Over 90% of people with moderate TBI are able to live independently, although a portion require assistance in areas such as physical abilities, employment, and financial managing. Most people with severe closed head injury either die or recover enough to live independently; middle ground is less common. Coma, as it is closely related to severity, is a strong predictor of poor outcome. ———- Oh, cool. So glad to know that.
Cognitive deficits that can follow TBI include impaired attention; disrupted insight, judgement, and thought; reduced processing speed; distractibility; and deficits in executive functions such as abstract reasoning, planning, problem-solving, and multitasking. —yup.
Memory loss, the most common cognitive impairment among head-injured people, occurs in 20–79% of people with closed head trauma, depending on severity. People who have suffered TBI may also have difficulty with understanding or producing spoken or written language, or with more subtle aspects of communication such as body language. Post-concussion syndrome, a set of lasting symptoms experienced after mild TBI, can include physical, cognitive, emotional and behavioral problems such as headaches, dizziness, difficulty concentrating, and depression.
my life for the past 6-7 months in a nutshell. blah de blah.
When I think about how many things I want - clothes, shoes, books, whatever - I always end up remembering that I don’t actually need any of it. And when I see people suffering, whether it be from the smallest things or from large-scale disasters, I feel inherently selfish. I realize I want things I can’t have, but it never truly stings until I see someone wanting something I don’t even think about affording, like water, food, gas or a car. Taking these things for granted is excusable, sure, but in essence, the only justification for such an attitude on life is gratitude. The gain from selfish acts can last only so long, but the repercussions of sincerity and gratitude can be everlasting. Saying ‘thank you’ for even the smallest of life’s luxuries, like a beautiful day or a good lunch, will not only make someone more positive throughout the day, but will get them to appreciate the simple things in life.
Challenge: Have gratitude for something every day, whether it be small or large, unimportant or world-revolving, lustful or filled with love. Whatever it may be, be thankful for a such a blessed life in a safe city, getting a valuable education, with friends left and right. With such opportunities in our paths, staying positive and having gratitude are only necessary to fully appreciate the privileged life we are so fortunate to lead.